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I know I’ve recently posted two rather “spiritual” sounding blogs. They truly come from my heart. On the other hand, I don’t wish to come across as an out-of-touch religious nutcase. In reality, I’m struggling a lot in life right now. A lot of things I’ve dreamed of my whole life haven’t turned out the way I thought, or turned out at all. I’m hurting over this a lot of the time. Hoping in a promise yet unfulfilled. It’s hard. I experience a lot of frustration and discouragement on a daily basis.
These theologically-wrestling blogs are my way of speaking truth to myself. Reminding myself of who God is, what He has for my life. It helps me get through the madness that goes on inside my head. If I didn’t have these truths to hang onto, I would be….well I don’t want to think about that. It would be a bad picture, I promise.
If you’re near in my life right now, you know that I do complain, and vent, and share my despair and sadness to those close to me. At the same time, my emotions have a tendency to run over my beliefs and crush them into smithereens. To combat that terrible state of affairs, I have think, write, and reinforce what I know that I know that I know is true. God’s love. His promises. His promise to make me more like Himself. My desire to cooperate with that process.
I gotta turn my focus to the good things; the things that matter. Like my dear and adorable nephew. Thanks to my hubby for capturing this special moment. This picture makes me happy, and reminds me of all the amazing things I have to be thankful for.
